I have decided to make a composite image conjured up from a number of memories. My childhood on the whole was a happy one, with great parents. Yet I was abused and it is the abuse that is the driver for this image.
Holidays were great times
I always wanted a dog
Religion became important after the abuse
Aged black and white for my memories
All three of the above points are played out in the image, which is deliberately blurred and aged, like my memories. This is partly due to the time that has passed and partly due towhead happened to me when I was about 8 years old.
I’m not sure I like the image, it reminds me of what happened, but it is how I wanted to recreate my memory, which is part of my healing process. It has left me with PTSD.
I have been asked to reflect on the photographers I have looked at and add some notes and thoughts on their works. These are added below.
All the photographers I have looked at are ladies. May be this is due to self-expression being more socially accepted amongst women. They are also all white!!!
Is there some evidence of self exhibitionism in there?
Nakedness is a metaphor for vulnerability, baring your soul, being comfortable with yourself, expressing sexual frustration, exhibitionism.
When looking at Woodman’s and Brotherus’ work, I have asked non-photographers for their opinion, which ranges from weird to perverse and pointless. Therefore does this mean such images need to be captioned or further written context should be added?
I believe that Woodman is addressing her own feelings, and is also talking to others about sexuality, vulnerability and empowering women to be more bold, not only in their work, but in their lives in general. Brotherus is speaking to all people, so they can try to have empathy with being involuntarily childless and not to be afraid of who we al are.
Clearly all of the works have some element of self-indulgence in there, but self portraiture gives you a willing subject that is constantly accessible.
I will try to look at some male photographers as I progress through the course to gain a balance.
The above three have all produced work that is personal to them and that is the common link and theme. Yet the narrative and the context of how this unfolds is different.
Peter’s work resonates with me, as a number of years ago, I was unable to walk and was told I would never work again.
I am particularly interested in his thoughts of creating images that give an impression of claustrophobia and compression. This is something that has value to him and something that he continued to explore during his OCA course. He also encourages other students to do the same and this has struck a chord with me. At the moment there are 3 photographic interests of mine. One is Auschwitz, the second is mental health issue and the third one is the Greek Orthodox Church. The common link to these three is me as I have a personal interets in Auschwitz, have experienced mental health issues and I am a Greek Orthodox Christian.
I will therefore try to progress my interests as I progress.